Well. September.
Waiting for the doctor to call.
I have my list.
Main thing is diabetes tests.
Moles too. They may be a way in.
Mood has been very low. I need CBT and to join a group for therapy maybe. I cannot pay though. There is a mindfulness course - but £200 for 8 sessions is impossible.
Trying to get help from various people with no use at all. Lilli wants to offer practical help. Which is not any use. Tien never engages - she is self absorbed. I accept that.
Sharmin is no use either - very fragile herself.
I don't think I can do more right now.
Having a job to do that makes me go out and move around is the best I can manage. Some kind of social life would also help.
I love to play games and enjoy the banter. It's the best thing I can do.
Step by step. There is no avoiding the grieving process. It is what it is as they say.
I need someone to say - it's ok - this is normal. Nothing is your fault. It will pass.
I guess I have to tell myself that as much as possible. Nobody else gets it.
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